| - wtf ... | Monday, February 28, 2005 6:58 PM |
like fuck everthing in this fuckin' world. my handphone just... died. i suddenly wanted to sms. and i took out my hp... and... and... the screen was blank... and... and... it's not gonna come back. how sad. i'm not happy about getting a new phone at all. now what? this is absolutely, totally, unacceptably FUCKED UP! i'm sad. totally. | |
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| ` gawd - | Saturday, February 26, 2005 3:26 AM |
yesterdae was not a bad day. but now's past midnight so today's a bad day. i went to watch howl's moving castle with my bruddah... it was nice. had loads of time to waste before the show so we went to paradigm and arcade. i saw this richelda's colleague back at forum at the arcade. i just kept staring at him =/ after the show.. that's about 1.30am... with the lights dimly lit... i saw this familiar face. richelda's colleague was sitting just in front of me. oh wells... coincidences freak me out. i dropped by bakerz inn to talk to angela quite a number of times. im seriously considering joining her there for work now. i heard it's busy... but... something's pulling me there... something's pulling me back... it's so confusing, yeah? common tests are finally over. projects are piling up. what's more for me to say? tonight, i feel like i'm missin' something. it's haunting me. i can't sleep. i lost some feelings... i can't quite explain. im feelin' a reasonable amount of guilt... for getting sick of things once so dear to me. 3ciA please be strong. | |
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| ** sorry ; | Friday, February 25, 2005 2:10 AM |
to you: i'm sorry i cannot help. blogger probably ate up another of my entry. but it's ok... it wasn't important anyway... so today basically i went to tokyo dining to find richelda and pingting. and apparently they were having this almost 4 hours long break. probably spent like 1 hour in the ladies just chatting and whatever >.< then went to eat a california maki each. then we went shopping 'cuz marina was closing down for renovation and everywhere was having sale. i called nevil to check if alex was contactable. nevil scolded me for not asking him along to tokyo dining. i called alex for richelda after that to ask for her over time pay. then we chatted quite a while with alex. after we hung up... alex called again while we were shopping... i guessed he was at marina square too but he didnt admit. in the end he told us so we went to meet him. went to eat at the food court upstairs... then they all had to go back to work. after that i went to town. alone. I MET KAREN. and kenny. and her friend. oh wow. just when i told her long time no see... i saw her -.- then i went to meet reagan and whoever at heeren... and kong long stepped on my ankle. it fuckin' hurt now. but nvm. oh wells... good luck for my maths tmr... and yes! i can't say what i'm so happy about -.-" this is lame | |
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| =( | Thursday, February 24, 2005 2:20 PM |
so i'm like supposed to work 10am to close on saturday and 9.30am to close on sunday. i think today i'll just spend sometime walking around town and studying a teeny weeny bit. hoping richelda's working 'cuz i might just drop by. duh~ it's rainin'... how am i supposed to go out still... but oh wells~ i'm just determined... i'm lookin' for a new job too... hopefully i quit genki by this weekend. look at this pathetic me... i hope 'O's results doesnt come out tmr either... i'm supposed to meet zijing. god bless my soul =/ | |
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| // sad eighteen ][ ` | Monday, February 21, 2005 2:55 AM |
i'm turnin' 18 in a matter of 17 sad, miserable days i s'poze. what's the matter with me this time? will you never turn back again? i've been waitin' day after day... keep wishin' that you'll be here again... | |
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| * cry * | Sunday, February 20, 2005 2:32 PM |
cry... maybe that's all i know how to do. maybe i deserved it. maybe i've been a bytch. so much so i can't remember the evil that i've done. i'm so lame. oh won't someone just pity me and show me some love? don't hate me ; don't hate me. how silly can i be? i feel empty inside of me. there's this funni feelin' like my heart is fallin' down. somewhat like a roller coaster ride except slower and just keeps going down.. and down.. and down.. and down.. i want someone to tell me it is known that i never did it wrong. i don't want to hear about now nobody's putting the blame on me. it seems as though i really am wrong just that people around has forgiven me. i don't want to carry the burden of things that never was. i hate it; i HATE it! life never fails to amuse me with it's downs and downs... and more downs. | |
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| +*+*+*+ xamz +*+*+*+ | 12:40 AM |
common tests starts on mondae. so i'm not workin' all da wae from now to fridae even though i dont have to go to school all daex. i needed this break aniwaex =/ just a brief recollection of wad's been goin' on. yesterdae richelda and wailing came to united square after closing. sat outside and chatted till the last train. tt's about it. i'm tiredd. i need a break right this instant. | |
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| - left - | Thursday, February 17, 2005 1:08 AM |
just back from the airport after seein' jon off. his dad and sista sent benjo and i home. i'm sad. but i didn't cry there. we kinda took our time so when we reached the hall he was pretty late. at last call already. the usual hugx and byex. i reminded him tt my birthday was on 10th and not 17th before he went in >.< realised that joyce is actually benjo's sista. small world yeah. or rather... small singapore~ before going to airport. i went to forum to find richelda. met mdm grace, mdm rachel, mdm teckhwee and mdm shimin. they were havin' dinner at genki but i only saw them when they were leavin'. whatever. i just lost the mood for anything... 'cuz half way through blogging this, i realised i forgot to pass to jon something i wanted to give him. damn it. fuck it. | |
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| `s0 wr0ngg .:::. | Wednesday, February 16, 2005 3:19 AM |
jon's leavin' tmr and i've already started to tear and shit if you get what i mean. i'm just not used to partings and good-byes. shiatx~ fugy kinda reminded me of sherman. it scares me. he scares me. this is terrible. i don't know what's gotten into me. something's so not right. what's happenin' ?! | |
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| .x.____j0nathann~* | Tuesday, February 15, 2005 1:43 AM |
so lonely. j03y didnt come for lessons cos of performance. joycelyn went home cos she wasnt feelin' well. felicia went for a lil v day get together. i was all alone... zzz~ met up with jon at S11 after school todae. then dennis. then alex. then sotong. saw keegan and kaisiang by chance as well. sat and rot and j03y left earlier... went to boat quay with jon and his friends around 8+pm... some jazz pub. not too bad... had free ferrero rocher and no entrance charge =/ pretty cool huh? i'm dead tired but ailing told me to go and work 6-close tmr. seriously fell asleep on the bus on the way back till nevil called. chatted a lil with jon back home on msn after calling him to tell him im home safe and sound. i'll be at the airport to see him for the last time this time round. im already feelin' tears welling in my eyes just thinking about seeing him off. sigh~ | |
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| ! headachee */ ! | Sunday, February 13, 2005 12:41 AM |
i'm back from lee hsien long's house with a terribe headache. i was basically like an idiot there. all i did was displaying the salmon, tamago, unagi, maguro, inari... filling up the ginger boxes with ginger... topping up the shoyu in the teapot... peel the prawns... prepare for frying... taking the tempura in and out of the kitchen... washing whatever there is to wash... wiping here wiping there even though there's nothing to wipe... and drinking coke. talk about the good things maybe... i got a $20 ang pao from no idea who... it doesn't realli matter aniwaess. i'm hungry now =( | |
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| `[[ retardedd `]] | Saturday, February 12, 2005 12:06 PM |
i'm gonna go lee hsien long's house later... in case you dont know who he is... he's singapore's prime minister. i dont know which retard will think this is awfully cool 'cuz im definitely not interested in going. so why the hell must he get genki over to make sushi when there's so many other sushi places around. i'm supposed to work at 3pm but no idea why they changed it to 2pm last minute. xing yi's worse... 5pm become 1pm... oh wells... maybe it won't be so bad 'cuz im working with zinc todae. how 'bout someone find me a new job? the kind i'll definitely prefer.. pretty pleeaseee ? | |
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| *genkii sarkss__.x. | Tuesday, February 08, 2005 1:19 AM |
i've got so much to blog. but i don't know what to blog. i only remember richelda and szehua came to united square. i got to work with zinc for two hours. and i lied to get leave tomorrow. now that i resent working... is there any way to go on? how can i work 12pm to close without break? this isn't ondo. it doesn't work the same way for me anymore. i want to be free. | |
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| .::. blahxx .::. | Sunday, February 06, 2005 1:50 AM |
i so dont have the mood to blog but im doing it as a chore right now. people must be interested to know about life at genki united square. well for everyone's information... it sux... like totally. the more familiar people i work with... the more i feel like cryin'... i still cannot put ondo to the back of my mind. i still need ondo in my life. todae it crossed my mind... and i know there's no other solution... if this carries on, i'll have to leave genki... i dont know if it's the problem with genki or the sushi counter... all i know is i feel so empty yet at the same time i feel like there's no room for me to breathe. i cannot go on cryin' every other day. adrian im not gettin' used to crying... i can't help it. i've been wondering what would it be like when ondo revives. will we really be back together all over again? if yes, will it really be like before? it's like i lived on regular strong dosage of ondo and everything else that comes with it. now i'm deprived of an addiction i cannot quit. i'm desperate to get rid of those down syndroms. i just wanna get over it! | |
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| *~sAdx~* | Tuesday, February 01, 2005 1:45 PM |
that's the end of sushi ondo till the next opens again. yesterday's buffet... haix~ so many people cried. even chef did. it hurts... i still can't realli accept this. it's not gonna be easy. i never thought it's gonna be this sad... no matter how hard we try to lighten the atmosphere... we somehow know this unspoken pain inside everyone of us. i told adrian something that nobody know of yet. i trust distance and time will soon erase away those feelings and i'll be fine. what's more for me to say? i'm just sick and tired of my own bitchy attitude. | |
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