| @ his place | Saturday, May 27, 2006 1:20 AM |
since i can't sleep anyway... i shall blog again... im chatting with imah now... she's so doing her powerpoint slides for thursday =( and what am i doing? blogging.... she's putting me to shame now... she's psycho-ing me to go and stare at the ceiling... she didn't go to school today to see samuel's styled up hair. i bet she's disappointed. bwaha. and i'm just being lame. maybe i should start thinking about what to do tomorrow with my darling. bu yao retarded lei... | |
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| @ his place | 12:57 AM |
i'm at his place. and he's not at home. so i do what i do best. think. and i get to conclude things that never fail to keep me awake. i knew i should have just insisted on going with him. i knew no matter how tired i am i needed to spend any possible time with him. i knew... i knew... it's always too late... i'm always too late... and she... she's just someone i hope he will never ever think about again. she's just someone i hope he will at least not look at anymore... she's just someone who makes me feel inferior... so not good enough... that explains why i actually told him sometimes he does somethings that upsets me... but that doesn't mean i love him any lesser... i'm just... really hurt... that's all... no big deal... and all over again i just need to convince myself... it's all gonna be over soon... just hang in there and believe in myself... because everybody believes in me... so she says... "be at your best... wad's yours will always be yours" thanks you know who you are... amidst the crowd... you're the only one i can see... | |
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| like a knife stabbing me. | Tuesday, May 23, 2006 11:07 AM |
yaya. i'm blogging again. i had a nightmare (or was it a daymare?). that explains why i'm here in school at this time on a freaking tuesday. she texted him yesterday. and it bothers me. so i spent the night tossing and turning in bed. and woke up this morning one zillion times earlier than i needed to due to a mare. plus eyes feeling ever so sore minus the goldfish look. so i trust him. what's wrong with me? is it just me or will anyone in my shoes feel this way too? if nothing tonight... i'm going to the beach... if not tonight... i hope it's real soon... the best way to make wishes come true is after all telling the sea. strangers behold. my instinct tells me that my sense of insecurity is so right. so as soon as new skin's up... i'm shifting. again. bid your "laughing my ass off" entertainment blog good bye. soon. something inside is hurting real bad. i feel like screaming. let me go. | |
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| martell ! | Monday, May 22, 2006 11:12 AM |
project is due next week. and here i am blogging in class. rofl.. i met TAN YANXI on saturday. FINALLY! haha... yeah it was quite fun... it's been a long time la. and met someone on sunday. but i can't mention her name 'cuz she said i'm not supposed to for her personal reason. lol... had some martell before i went out yesterday. yeyness! i kinda like liquor. but have yet gotten drunk like i said i want to. can't wait for today's lesson to end. my boyfriend is coming to meet me! i love love love love him =) | |
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| I WANT OUT!!! | Saturday, May 20, 2006 12:15 PM |
i really wanna go out today. but no one wanna go out with me. therefore, i am freaking sad. where is everybody? can anyone hear me? | |
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| $$$ | Wednesday, May 17, 2006 10:39 AM |
it's the 3rd time i'm blogging today. wanna make a guess how bored i am? let's take a look at my financial status =( i now have $60.96 in my UOB. becos of one skirt, one shop.. i had to use $30 from my POSB which i'm not supposed to. so if i transfer $30 back to my POSB, i only have $30.96 in my UOB. then i have $65.65 in my wallet... out of which $3 cannot be used... and $2.60 on the table. altogether i have $96.21 minus $52 which i'm gonna use for concession. it all leaves me with $44.21. i have a thousand things to buy... how can i get the money??? where can i get the money??? should i use any from my POSB??? no no no no no no no...! attachment please come soon. i need the money! on top of all that... i need to shed some kilos to be nice at mandy's wedding =)) counting money is sad having money you can't spend is worse | |
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9:58 AM | |
forget about the ebase boots. it's not so fab after all... i'm hunting for cheaper and nicer ones already... but i saw a pair of shorts at surfer's paradiz... and i'm lovin` it... i know it's just some random label... but oh wells... and for just some random label... it's too high a price to pay... yet it's something i like... *screams* but i guess right now it's much okay... because i ain`t in the mood to get it anyway. not that i'm heartbroken or anything. perhaps it's just because he's not right here beside me. i miss you dear. i love love love love you. | |
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| 3cia .. u're just fine | 9:24 AM |
i just reached school.. sat down.. and here i am blogging away. for a very simple reason.. i'm not exactly feeling great. why? i don't know... i can't possibly say i'm upset because she's pretty. can i? but it's dominating my mind... building nightmares in my mind... conquering me while i'm sleeping... and there is nothing i can do about it... i don't feel like eating. i don't feel like talking. i don't feel like doing anything. all just because... haiz... i want to be as good as her... i want to stop feeling this inferior... how can i convince myself that i am really good enough? if i can't even feel worthy of myself... how can he feel that i'm worthy? i really need to be confident for a love i want to keep. maybe it's time i realised i shut my door in God's face. maybe... let's go to the beach... the best way to make wishes come true... the ocean have ears... | |
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| angel vs devil | Monday, May 15, 2006 11:26 AM |
back to school. it's another blue monday. but i'm pretty sure tuesday.. tomorrow that is.. will be "blue-er".. i'm so stuck with my project. somebody just kill me. anyways, took sometime to talk over things with my dear. things that i really need to voice out before i explode. and at least for now and the near future things are gonna be okay. and by okay i guess i mean better than before. to her.. if you truly want me to be happy. just let me forget you once in a while. even though i hope we never happened... i can be there when you need someone still... i wish, i hope & i pray for you that the angel residing in you will one day overpower the devil ruling it. same to myself. | |
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| rantss | Wednesday, May 10, 2006 10:27 AM |
did i forget to mention... im happy he sent me to school on monday. and lunch. and dinner. and home. | |
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| rantss | 10:05 AM |
it's been a week + 1 day since i last blogged... so here i am again. i wouldn't say i've been busy. i wasn't exactly. just things to do... packed schedule. his birthday... his sister's wedding... stuff like that. today's mood : grumpy guess i'll just spend my time hoping school will end faster so i can meet dear dear to eat dinner. sometimes i still think... is it all still a dream or now it's for real? sometimes i still fear... can i call you mine or am i only yours? | |
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| THE EBASE BOOTS! | Tuesday, May 02, 2006 1:42 PM |
i just reached labby like half an hour ago. b'cuz it's tuesday today!!! auntie got lecture at 10-12 =)) haha... so some updates about nothing.. my boy and i got new bags. yeap... the same one... prolly upload some pictures of them after his sister's wedding when my camera's back. AND I SAW THIS FREAKING PAIR OF BOOTS AT EBASE THAT I WANT SO BAD!!! i can't get it out of my mind at all =( sobs... i just told patricia about it... guess what? SHE NOTICED IT TOO!!! haizzzzzz... never mind... if it's meant to be mine... it will be... i want it so bad !!! | |
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