| back to work | Monday, July 31, 2006 8:59 AM |
can't wait for 13th August. going malaysia with darling again. anyways... i'm a bit sick. cough and all... but much better than yesterday though = went for NDP preview on saturday with boyfriend. saw yinsan and grace... and of course zijing. wasn't so bad i guess... the cookie inside the bag is delicious hahaha =x next thing is... i dyed my hair... black. well blue if you're observant enough lol... waiting for pay day once again~ hope it's soon, otherwise i'll just starve to death ya... damn i feel like shitting again. and ya... i bought a red hairband instead of a white. never mind i'll go hunt for aother one sometime soon ): | |
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| friday once again | Friday, July 28, 2006 8:40 AM |
taking things one step further is what i really want to do. i don't wanna dwell on things that i was at last year... the year before... and so on. what's life when it's so mono? therefore i may have to bear with things for a little while... perhaps get used to it. wish i can go for GB today. it's at least 1298460 times better than working. yeah... even though it's friday~ i like bitches but i hate sluts... if i hate you... think along this line... | |
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| munch munch | Thursday, July 27, 2006 8:50 AM |
i don't know what to blog about today... perhaps i shall continue eating my bread =\ | |
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| sleepy ~.~ | Wednesday, July 26, 2006 9:43 AM |
how can i forget to blog again =\ since there's nothing to celebrate i shall bring up what candice and i were discussing about yesterday. lolss... why do those fancy sex shops & condom shops have age limit? we can be sure for one thing that it's not about being legal. girls are legal to have sex at 16... guys at18... but apparently girls are not allowed into the shops before 18 either. let's put it this way... you can only purchase condom after 18... they decide to check your IC like as though you're buying alcohol or cigarattes. candice: "does that mean people under 18 don't need safe sex?" maybe this is too irrelevant to certain people... let's talk about more realistic stuff. what makes them believe that people who are 17 years old, 11 months and 30days old are not matured enough to watch M18 movies? what makes them believe that you're not responsible enough to consume alcohol until the clock strikes 12 on your 18th birthday? why do they think that people change overnight(or overday/hour/minute/second)? considering the commonly stated logic that the male's mind mature 3 years later the the female's is it only right to allow guys to do what girls 3 years younger than them do? e.g. if a girl can watch NC16 at 16... a guy can only do it at 19... if you've been to a movie since the M18 or NC16 label came out... you'd have seen the advert saying something like with these new labels more choices of movies are available for you stuff like that... honestly... everyone i've been to the movies with remarked similarly... "how can that be?"... like come on... public actually ends up with less choices due to the limitations. just face it... on the same note, if girls are responsible enough to club at 18 with alcohol and all... then perhaps guys at 21... i'm not being sexist or anything here. i just plainly don't see the logic of such generalized subjective rules. clearly the reasons aren't convincing and i'm not the only one who thinks so. so it's definitely not something wrong with me, yes my friends? | |
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| not so in the mood to blog | Tuesday, July 25, 2006 8:36 AM |
i've given so much...................... | |
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| countdown begins! | Monday, July 24, 2006 8:31 AM |
i went to far east with zijing on friday. and guess what? I BOUGHT BOOTS!!! anyways... after buying stuff and stuff we went to look for kel and all. blahs~ saturday went to town with yan. and met joey for a teeny weeny while. went to DXO with yan, yen, sweeshan, chuiyi & chuiting. but it was too boring for us to endure... so we decided on zouk instead. but sweeshan, chuiyi & chuiting didn't go with us =\ felt so bad la. anyways... it's been like 12983503 years since i last clubbed. pretty much hung out at phuture.. went home at 3am. sunday went marina with my dear... and please la... there was this squirming lil wormie on the shell of this oyster i ordered at fins. major turn off zzz... bought my demin shorts finally. bwaha~ START OF LAST MONTH OF IAP. let's countdown my friends! | |
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| 1 last month to go ~ | Friday, July 21, 2006 8:30 AM |
today marks 2 months of IAP completed. yeyness! can you feel the excitement?! well i knocked into something on the way to the office... now my hand hurts ): it's freaking friday as well... weekend is here!!! anyone wanna date me on saturday? i'd probably be free for once ya know ;) i've got nothing to say at meeting today... let's hope it goes well. | |
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| family does NOT stand for father and mother i love you | Thursday, July 20, 2006 8:46 AM |
almost forgot to blog today... guess pretty busy playing game huh. lols... anyways just for your info... i'm not in the best of mood today. if there's anything i wanna get away from these 19 years of my life... it's that thing people call family. well they're no doubt a pain in the ass. like come on... yes i may have done wrong in the past... i may be nothing in your eyes... i may be the youngest in the family... but i sure do need that teeny weeny bit of respect. for fuck's sake think about it... i've been the one crying yet keeping mum about the authority abusing sister. i've been the one sitting by the stove waiting for the water to boil before electric kettle was in fashion. i've been the one in want and not getting what i want. it doesn't mean when you don't say you do nothing. it doesn't mean when you do something you must tell the world about it. i'm not problematic... i'm not psychotic... i'm not walking the wrong path... i'm not seeking for attention... all i want is to get what i want... do what i want to do... but i guess family just don't trust you enough to let you live your own life. that's why i change... i don't want to be that little girl weeping quietly in the corner... and if you're too thick to have realised this by now after so many times of me voicing out... the more you don't want me to do it... the more i'll do it... because since i don't get to do what i want to do... life ain't no fun any more... where's the excitement? be happy that i'm not chopping up bodies and keeping them inside luggage bags (: even though i know every family has its own woes... i'll never forget my mother telling me she'd rather have a dog than me... i'll never forget my sister telling me she hated me... and i'll never forget telling my dad he can pretend i'm not his daughter. because i meant it from the bottom of my heart... if you think i'm such a disgrace to the family just because of the people i'm with or the things i do... fine. i'm not changing that just because of you. i'm 19 and i have the right to think for myself. fussing over everything just because of a fucking broken screw beneath my bed... that is completely so not what i look for in a family. don't blame me for being a pessimistic freak. when your environment constantly reminds you that you're not as good as you think you are.. ta da~ the result you get is someone like me. sometimes i just wanna grow up... soar and fly high... | |
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| reality vs dream | Wednesday, July 19, 2006 8:29 AM |
sometimes i feel so sick and tired of this shit life... sometimes i get the hang of the routine... even though i'm not feeling the best of nothing... today is one of those days i'm getting along fine... what are dreams? or even nightmares? are they really things you constantly think about in your conscious state? are they really things you fear in reality? why are those things appearing in my mind without my control? are they telling me something? everything seem so real even upon waking up. there's this feeling deep in the bottom of my stomach. so many questions... so many doubts... let's just hope & pray... that everything is so okay... that this is one of those times... when dreams never come true... Leaf's departure was because of the wind's pursuit... or was it because Tree hadn't ask it to stay? | |
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| jianyong on MC | Tuesday, July 18, 2006 8:32 AM |
bet my colleague is on MC today... so i guess it's just me and the newer IA student from NTU. i've planned for lunch and all lols... just cup noodle will do. the office is air-conditioned... like 3857 24895 times better than those coffee shops outside. how do i feel? am i okay? think going back to school is the best way to feel better... difficult != impossible i can do it | |
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| weekend updates. | Monday, July 17, 2006 8:48 AM |
wanted to leave some love here on friday but didn't have the time. to explain... i took MC on friday. just wanted to take a break... since my tummy wasn't feeling so well... and since everyone was encouraging me as well... i went to the doctor and went for GB after that. and w00t... it was rehearsal for GB day... oh ya by the way... to all my fellow GB-mates: HAPPY GIRLS' BRIGADE DAY!!! yeap... so basically after parade i just went for dinner... and my darling surprised me with movie! he bought tix for pirates without telling me all the way. haha how sweet :)) stayed over at his place that night. saturday went for DI refresher's course... had long hours of drill... aching a `lil here and there now. lols... but i guess it was still good other than being lonely? =\ he stayed over at my place on saturday. bought him a new shirt on sunday @ bugis. and back to work now. 7th week into IAP. let's do some rain dance... it's freakin' hot out there ): it's my life... i live the way i want... | |
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| bah | Thursday, July 13, 2006 8:52 AM |
blogging again to keep myself busy... so that i wouldn't think about random stuffs that actually hurts. been reading lotsa GB girls' blogs... their rants about schools and homework set me thinking... recalling the days when i still had homework and all... it never fails to amuse me... how did i ever manage to achieve full attendance all those years back? reaching school earlier than 7am... in poly school has never been earlier than 8.30am... and we all have trouble being on time... used to have CCA on saturdays and i actually reach school earlier than normal days... in poly most of the time there's only 4 schooling days... and we all grumble about it just because we have long hours. isn't it just about the same as secondary school? ok it's kinda abrupt... but geez... i'm sick of ranting. tired of thinking. i just wish he would call right now. | |
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| hell. | 8:25 AM |
i'm a disaster... so waiting for someone to slap me... to awaken me... and i need someone here right now... yet i don't have the slightest idea who can be here right now... who should i talk to... whose shoulder is waiting for me to lean on... everything's in a mess... another 2 days to weekend... and i know it's gonna be hell without him... what should i do? god i can need some help right now... i'm sorry... for i have sinned. a broken mirror... which reflection am i??? | |
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| saw huiyun!! | Wednesday, July 12, 2006 8:47 AM |
wee~! i saw huiyun yesterday xD well what should i say... she's still the same i guess =p nice to see you there!!! today is wednesday... 2 more days to weekend... to gb =\ should i or should i not polish my boots? in fact... should i even wear boots? lol... ahhh!!! i'm 19 and still thinking about boots or not.... that's like so silly... anyways... grace's wedding... to go or not to go =\ he........... haiz~ | |
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| yawns | Tuesday, July 11, 2006 8:33 AM |
time is crawling. 6th week into IAP... another 6 more weeks to go... so waiting for that day to come... then it's finally my 1 month 3 weeks break since year 2 ended! can you believe that??? so waiting for it.... | |
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| rainy monday | Monday, July 10, 2006 8:41 AM |
honestly my tummy still hurts. and i'm so not happy. saturday popped by their rehearsal for enrolment... sunday went down for the actual thingy... jon was there... one cool thing. but i slapped him on the face. how sweet of me ): sorry pal~ candice almost didn't come again. but well it's still quite cool... managed to give wanyi THE hug... hear stories and updates... now have to think about next week's DI refreshers' and consider whether to go or not. but i guess i'll go in the end =\ that's so me. the new IAP student from NTU is here... and damn i couldn't catch her name but i dare not ask the 2nd time ): too many things going through my mind... so much so i don't even know specifically what i'm thinking about... i shall just stop here... | |
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| tummy hurts ): | Friday, July 07, 2006 8:30 AM |
i'm having a terrible terrible stomach ache since last night. sucks big time. went to walk around yesterday for a while at junction 8 and saw michelle =\ spent some money again... bought the belt i wanted from ebase at 50% off. bought a top also from ebase at 50% off too. bought a white tube to go along with some random stuff i have. sweet. dear bought me a gold chain with bling pendant from 77th street... `cuz i liked it? well it's ex =( costs about the same as my 2 stuff add together. thanks darling loads. watched superman returns too... and guess what... i fell asleep in the middle. how nice.... i shall go stare at my codes while wishing my tummy will be better... and oh yah before i end this... DI refreshers' course is on again ~~~ | |
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| sorry jon!!! | Thursday, July 06, 2006 8:41 AM |
raining today. finally... i hate the hot weather! it makes me feel like screaming... tonight jon and the guys are meeting up... duno who's going though... can't make it `cuz i already got plans... sorry y'all !!! didn't mean to miss this... sorry jon... cya on sunday alright? lols i feel retarded... not like they ever drop by to see my rants. monday supervisor will be back. but im certain that life without her will be much better. so enjoy today and tomorrow while i can. and chee will you stop lol~ing at me `cuz the dates i say sup is coming back is always wrong? haha... that's about it... i miss all at IAP & FYP. and kel with your tongue and nose disease... take good care. i can't buy food for you for nuts anymore... i have work to do... so be a good boy lol... just pretend everything is fine... soon you will really be fine... | |
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| for my love | Wednesday, July 05, 2006 8:28 AM |
i hope this blog is the one you follow and not some other blogs. because the point of writing is so you know what's going on in my life. i just never made it known that i wrote it for you to read. hoping that while reading everything you know and feel what i've put into it all. why did i ask u have u read my blog all of a sudden? i've been consoling myself that you have been just that you never told me. now i just wanted to know if i have just been kidding myself... over here lies a hundred thoughts... a thousand hopes... a million words... and infinite love... for you... did you realise? have you seen this? so many questions unanswered... so many contradictions... my life is in a mess just like you... and i need you right here beside me... because only in your embrace will i be okay... only your love will give me life again... happiness is only a call away from me... i don't want to grab it from your grasp... just a call at this moment of reading this... to let me know you're filling up my life, my heart... with the endless love you so want to deliver to me. my dearest... i have been okay... and i once felt like everything is in place. i just don't wanna smile at times when the pain is too deep. i love you too. i need you too. it's only human nature to fear... it isn't my fault. i just want to protect the love you have given to me. | |
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| puffy-eye tuesday | Tuesday, July 04, 2006 8:40 AM |
supervisor should be back mid week. well well... it's tuesday now... slept at 4am last night? or rather this morning... think puffy eyes... like what you'd look like if you cried 10pm to 4am... Loser with a capital L. spells my middle name... i'm just afraid... afraid to go through everything i've been put through. if that was all a test. i hope it's well over now and never gonna happen again. i just don't wanna lose him. don't wanna lose more of my life. i know this is what i want. just don't leave again. the past that put me down like i'm just a piece of trash... then nightmare that never seems to end... | |
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| shopping sunday | Monday, July 03, 2006 8:48 AM |
for the great weekend i've hoped for... saturday night was disaster. i mean... it wasn't about the chalet or anything... let's just blame everything on PMS. i'm tired. "Are we the same?" hey baby... i guess it's pretty obvious. N-O ! we're not one bit alike. i know it's just a tiny thing. but oh i'm not such a generous person after all. talk about good stuff... sunday was crazy... let's list the stuff boyfriend and i bought.
well M-industrie was letting certain stuff go at 2 for $30. samuel and kevin's was having 50% off. the watch went at $9.90 with 2nd piece 10% off. i needed the bag and the belt is sexy. after pay comes we're going to get more more more! i'm still short of a tube and a pair of flip flops... and i won't die if i had more clothes =x there's a nice shop in Icon @ Bugis that does customise slippers. it's real cool xD and i saw this sweater that i know i won't really wear anyway. but i seriously love it because at the front it says "Queen Of Bitch". i so gawd damn want it ): before i end this... one last thing... JON IS BACK!!! maybe life isn't so bad after all... look on the bright side =\ | |
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8:29 AM | |
for the great weekend i've hoped for... saturday night was disaster. i mean... it wasn't about the chalet or anything... let's blame everything on PMS. i'm tired. "Are we the same?" hey baby... i guess it's pretty obvious. N-O ! we're not one bit alike. i know it's just a tiny thing. but oh i'm not such a generous person after all. talk about good stuff... sunday was crazy... let's list the stuff boyfriend and i bought.
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