| insanity | Wednesday, August 29, 2007 5:32 AM |
i feel so contained. i just hope that one day they'd quit all that shit. especially him. moving out has always been an option but i've been trying very hard. all i ask for is their understanding. i'm twenty but when it comes to life with them, i'm stuck at what it has been like since thirteen. and i have a feeling they won't ever realise things got to take a change. i've been around for way too long. need a break. home, just where exactly is it? | |
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| impossibility | Monday, August 27, 2007 10:15 PM |
everytime i think of it. my heart skips a beat. 同样一种调调 一个暗号 同类才收到 | |
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| lost | Sunday, August 26, 2007 2:02 AM |
money. yeah, i have a major problem with it. so i'm thinking when september comes... or rather october... will all this misery be resolved? i sure hope so. it's not that bad considering all else but still. sometimes you just make me feel like crap. i don't even know what to think. just what is going on? maybe we should talk. maybe not. maybe you're just another one of them. maybe the best thing is to remain as it is. maybe this is the only way i can have you like i already do. maybe i shouldn't want more. | |
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| not again | Thursday, August 23, 2007 12:49 AM |
so many things that doesn't have any explanation. tell me, what can i say to get out of your perception? it just happens like that. and i guess everything will remain as it is. what's most important, i believe... is i'm happy with the way things are now. and that's all i ask for. it's not simple, i guess. i need some rest. 'nuff said. thanks for your surprise. | |
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| LOL | Tuesday, August 21, 2007 2:20 PM |
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| so much more than this | 12:59 AM |
the last thing i need is your doubt. all of you. i wish i can have more time for everything. seriously, who doesn't? why did you have to tell me? what have i done to deserve knowing? did it ever occur to you that maybe it'll hurt? guess not... guess it doesn't really matter to you. | |
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| him ; him | Saturday, August 18, 2007 8:32 AM |
i wish my little brother is here ): he's never been this far away. i've never felt more unsafe than this. here's my story. i just wanted to eat so i went out to get something. along the way i somehow managed to lose my keys. i came back and the whole world was asleep. nobody picked up my calls so i went to hunt for 'em. yup, there wasn't a trace. lucky for me... my dad opened the doors. guess what? he tried calling for the past half an hour and he couldn't get through. which wasn't quite possible because i was on the phone all the while. i'm home. but totally freaked out. so totally gonna hide under my blanket and cry my ass out. if you can't figure out how i feel now then let me try and describe. it's something like my lungs ran out of oxygen and there isn't enough in my room right now. whoever's been through stuff with me knows what i'm talking about. anyhow, it's been a rough journey. he'll pick me up when i fall. he's been here all this while. how long will it take before you finally decide to come back home? i'm not weak. it was just a terrible scare. thankful for the fact that i am never alone. but where were you? all i want is a break. is it really that hard? i don't understand...... | |
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| nuă | Friday, August 17, 2007 2:43 AM |
yeah really that's it. just one signature. i don't even know if that's what i want to do. i don't even know it that's what i should do. just one tiny little scribble. with that, i reluctantly ended all my freedom. went for medical check-up. bought stuff for kel. dinner. hang out. pretty packed off day for me, huh. i just felt i needed to scream but i don't know how and i don't know what to shout about. which explains precisely why the above retarded details. it's what you see, damn right i'm happy everyday. check this zone out and you see what's really going on inside. but i love all of you and it's what makes my days. if this is eternal i think i simply wouldn't mind. somebody is special. they are special. | |
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| that's it | Thursday, August 16, 2007 1:25 PM |
gonna head down to sign some documents that'll bring my freedom to an end. yes i know it's part of growing up. well, i just hope it can at least put a stop to my financial crisis. i heard, no pain= no gain. maybe i'll get something out of this? maybe... | |
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| another week | Monday, August 13, 2007 2:01 AM |
i know i know... i'm late. but still i wanna say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON JIE!!! not forgetting, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEI!!! i hate to be like this but i'm tired and all. really. i wish i can just lie in bed all day with my teddy but monday is here again. back to work ; back to reality. there are so many things i want to do. i...... | |
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| 泪海 | Sunday, August 12, 2007 5:32 AM |
爱已不能动 还有什么值得我心痛 想你的天空下起雨来 没人心疼的黑夜 脸颊两行咸咸的泪水 是你 哦是你 让我望穿泪水肝肠寸断 你怎么舍得让我的泪流向海 付出的感情永远找不回来 你怎么舍得让我的爱流向海 伤心的往事一幕幕就像潮水将我淹埋 闭上了双眼 还看见和你的缠绵 眼角的泪水 洗不去心中 一遍一遍的誓言 how did we ever get here? where else will you lead? i need a break ; need to get a grip. let's not make it too hard to step apart. | |
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| urgh | Saturday, August 11, 2007 1:50 PM |
officially ill. but still caught up in a lot of shit. don't even ask. got a job for real like finally. i don't know anything but i'm not so afraid. maybe it's because they were right there with me. maybe not. whatever it is i just hope when i get serious with this whole thing about growing up... they'll still be here for me. and i'm still totally thrilled about bumping into joey and seetho! where, when, how? i can't tell you here (: i'm happy! | |
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| sigh | Tuesday, August 07, 2007 4:03 AM |
too many things to say. too little time. i lost my mp3 ): grace is pregnant. glad they offered all the help they could to brighten up my day. nice to see zijing after so long. greatful to know he remembers me everyday. i can list as many joyful incidents as i want but i just can't feel any better because of one tiny little problem. how ironic. | |
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| yey! | Friday, August 03, 2007 2:08 AM |
once again, PEOPLE WHO OWE ME MONEY PLEASE RETURN. no joke. i have absolutely no money to eat... no money to travel... what-so-ever. geddit? i've never felt like this my entire life. come on let's face it... i really wanna cry. really. but it's okay... it's favourite boy time (: | |
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| broke | Thursday, August 02, 2007 5:14 AM |
just for your info. i'm currently unable to do anything at all. apart from work, that is. curious? yeah, sad to admit... i've never came this close to bankruptcy all my life. to all concerned parties, i strongly suggest you guys not to worry. check my previous post if you're wondering why (: anyway, <3 kel. xD | |
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| them | 1:50 AM |
they don't necessarily stick around when i'm fine and everything's alright. but i recognise the faces that appear in my moments of needs. always have. how 'bout you? can you identify these people in your life? | |
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