| weekend | Friday, June 30, 2006 9:35 AM |
i don't feel like saying anything today. i'm just blogging because it's a routine. i'm not so happy... maybe because i'm hungry and tired. maybe because i still hate working. i wish for a nice weekend. just him & i. can i? | |
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| Thursday, June 29, 2006 11:42 AM | |
they have a GB blog. and updates are scarce. i shall blog about GB myself here *pouts* i miss those days... one of the best times of my life i would say. you may think i'm crazy... but i especially miss drill =\ most of all drill competition - the one i actually took part in. i miss the days i did drill with huiling everywhere we went... and pu-sing every corner we met. i miss how we could do hormat kehadapan for a long long time... while looking at our own reflections at church. i miss how i had to scream my head off teaching drill... and getting annoyed even though it's not such a big deal at all. i miss how zijing, huiyun, candice and all the rest of us... sat around lazing away, laughing about everything under the sun... and crying together about matters trivial as nothing. i mean... these aren't even half of everything. not even a quarter... and they make us wanna go "awwwww".. because those were the days. and now time and again we would talk about it all... wishing we could go back and find all the things we don't do anymore. it's not about losing something and only learn how to cherish after that. i have always loved GB and have always been trying my best to be there. it's just sometimes things just don't go our way... and i can't just do whatever i want. be it work... school... or even falling sick... it just happens that i always don't have the chance to go back to where happiness came from. i remember the days i wake up ever so early just to go for parades. reaching school before the sun is up... sometimes before the school gate is even opened. other times waking up the auntie at church to open the gate for us. once in a while climbing the gates to get in. there's so much to say... so much emotions deep within... i guess it's almost impossible to put it all in words. perhaps the closest i can come to describing all that will be with this phrase... those were the days | |
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| tmr is bbq day again! | 8:53 AM |
it's thursday. another 1 day to weekend. isn't that just cool? i guess i'm gonna have an early weekend. enjoy after work tomorrow. hmm... johnny's birthday... yet another BBQ... i almost forgot he existed =x and chris's birthday chalet as well... oh wells... i'm dying to wear my new top... but i've got no insides and no bottoms to go along... so i'm dying to go shopping for them now ): also looking forward to enrolment sunday. go back to GB... go back to bethel... back to the past where happiness used to be... i just wish the weather will be better. i hate the sun... one of these days i'll bring dear dear to sentosa. it's been like 10 years since he last went there. i want more weekends!!! if only... if only... happiness has yet to be... | |
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| chix feast | Wednesday, June 28, 2006 8:20 AM |
mid week 4. IAP is coming to a month. how very exciting... tonight i'm gonna feast! on a sole chix with plain rice. great. i reached at 8am this morning. so do i like leave at 5.30? can i? when's my pay coming? i hope it's not friday because it's like i have to cheque in and all... wish to turn my jeans into short pants. i'm still smiling... what about you? | |
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| sensing bad times comin` | Tuesday, June 27, 2006 11:08 AM |
i sorta forgot to blog earlier this morning ): so i'm making up for it now by secretly doing this in between work. geez... i've got HTML job today. but better than staring at those javascript and asp all the time. HTML is definitely 3938478357 times simpler. at least it's something i know with 101% that i can do... weather's turning hot again. i really hate that. and guess what...? today is so not my day as well... haizzz... back to work now... | |
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| keys keys keys | Monday, June 26, 2006 8:22 AM |
let's talk about yesterday first. i went to city square with boyfriend. while travelling there... going through custom and all... it was one hell of an excitement + anticipation... shopping was pretty normal... i bought a dress top & he bought an addidas shoe with mickey prints in gold! it's all really nice (: on the bus coming back... i actually saw cousin and his wife. how nice... i hope hope hope they don't tell on me! now for today... 4th week into IAP... getting used to many things... but one thing is i know supervisor is really really coming back this week. so i hope she's gonna be nice to me and all... and i still hope this all ends soon. i've got keys to office now so i can come anytime i want... and today... i clocked in at 8.08am which means........ I CAN LEAVE AT 5.40pm!!! yeyness x.x yesterday, today, tomorrow... and forever and ever and ever... | |
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| here comes the great big bus ): | Friday, June 23, 2006 8:29 AM |
god is alive! and he hears me! i woke up in the morning to realise IT'S FREAKING RAINING! damn the unavailable number calls with the constant beeping sounds. it rang at like what ??? every 5 minutes 5.30am this morning. i hope it stops soon enough before i go crazy. today is friday people!!! IT'S PARTY TIME =)) okay so not true... jianyong says that chunsiong says that there will be meeting today. true enough i've got stuff to show... but i certainly don't know how slow or fast i am right now... but i do know that i'm not gonna get a bytching from anyone... so i have to tell myself it's gonna be ok and don't be afraid... dear dear's gonna meet me today!! weeeee SENTOSA = So Expensive Nothing To See Actually i'm still going anyway. | |
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| my shoe stinks =( | Thursday, June 22, 2006 8:25 AM |
over is the rainy season... but boy do i hate the sun! i mean it's not particularly hot or anything... it's just... i don't know... i hate the heat... it's thursday... almost 3 weeks down of IAP... i could say i've been playing my part... though i really wish i was doing joey's stuff instead =x to be honest i spent three quarter of the time here surfing, msning and smsing. isn't that cool? and damn... where's my supervisor? how's she gonna write my report to the school if this goes on? weeee... friday's on it's way =) hi sir... TGIF ( thank goodness it's friday ) SHIT ( sorry honey it's thursday ) | |
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| 1 year 2 months | Wednesday, June 21, 2006 8:49 AM |
happy anniversary my dear. so it's wednesday today... end of fun in IAP... boss will be here. soon supervisor will be too. blah blah blah... i'm so out of ideas of things to blog. plus because i'm FAT... my mood is turning crappy again... so... maybe blog later or what... cya peeps... once upon a time... the girl who couldn't bear to hate... | |
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| thy tuesday come.. | Tuesday, June 20, 2006 8:59 AM |
i hate to start a day off like this. firstly, i woke up sorta late... but thanks to my maid for waking me up otherwise i'll still be in bed now. i wouldn't say i overslept since there's not fix time to come to work. secondly, it's pouring outside... with all the distance i have to walk in order to reach my office... one word - damn... thirdly, i realised boyfriend didn't go to work... i wanna be just like him this instant but you know better. last of all... i don't wish to list that out in detail. if you get what i mean... it's like i rather stay frustrated and pissed and all over it... than to write it all down double assuring myself that... you know... yeah i'm THAT turned off... to hell with all the shits... to hell with IAP... so i just had a hair cut last night... i'm supposed to be excited and all like as usual... but no... i just hate today to the core. and worse tomorrow boss is coming back... so is everyone else. i hate this. they just never seem to learn... we just never seem to satisfy... | |
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| what am i supposed to do ?! | Monday, June 19, 2006 10:21 AM |
damn it's monday again... had a bbq on saturday... last minute thing... it wasn't great or anything... i wouldn't say it's particularly enjoyable too... don't wanna drag this post going into it... just in case supervisor come in all of a sudden... yes, talking about supervisor... it's like she's not back yet?! am i lucky or what??? haiz... okay so... yesterday was fathers' day... i think... went to no signboard for dinner... again... i think i gained back the kilos i lost while being sick for that long long time... shit happens ya... and then another thing is MY COLLEAGUE PISSED ME OFF... i just wanna change that fucking mouse with the one i was using at first! god damn it! do something you should do and stop meddling with things that are none of your business! for goodness sake... i wish he can READ THIS AND FUCK OFF. never talk about feelings... if they aren't really there... | |
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| holy shit - it's friday ! | Friday, June 16, 2006 8:51 AM |
great. weekend's here! basically i'm just aching all over... and i don't really know how the heck i'm supposed to do my work. i've been coming to work feeling like damn it's another day of work... rather than feeling shitty IAP... i think because i don't even dress like i'm going to work... when i'm on the bus squashed with all the working class people... i get stared down by some... they think they can intimidate me or something? so sorry... i just stare back cos you guys look like aliens to me too. thanks. and for kel, reagan and company... i really wanna join you guys watching world cup even though i don't understand a fuck about soccer. but it's just too tiring for me if you get what i mean. i wish i'm back in school with all the mammels in crime... even if i had night classes that makes me sleep.. and lecturers who thinks i'm stupid. it really makes a whole world of difference when you're on some job you didn't volunteer for. never say hi... if you really mean goodbye... | |
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| thursday is before friday | Thursday, June 15, 2006 8:34 AM |
it's thursday. which means tomorrow is friday. weekend is coming. and i hate the idea that my supervisor is most likely to return next week. more so the boss is coming back on wednesday. then my IAP will be shitty like everyone else. damn. i had alot of things on my mind while planning what to blog about when i'm sitting here now. but now it seems... i can't remember anything i wanted to say at all. pretend it's weekend now since it's already so close... 2 weeks of IAP has passed. but there's still a long way to go. sigh... i hope this will end soon... put me out of misery please... and my freaking colleague who's on internship here is so nice to say i'm ah lian. thanks leh jianyong. if i've been and am being so unfair... maybe i should grant you that right too... | |
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| locked out wednesday | Wednesday, June 14, 2006 9:05 AM |
=( geez. i reached office 8+ today. but EVERYONE WITH THE KEY IS ON LEAVE TODAY *sobx* so i got locked out.. sort of.. until huifang came.. waited for over half an hour standing outside.. try to climb up the stairs to see if the door is open.. but NO it wasn't... as usual. i seriously think there's something wrong with the system here. i keep having to get locked out in the morning =\ well at least this time jianyong is here too. rather than most of the time waiting for the fella alone. okays `nuff of my whining. there's work to do even though i don't know how to do anything basically. i believe the rest of this week will breeze pass... and next week supervisor vrundha is finally coming back. which means i won't be able to msn and shits cuz my pc is right in front of her desk... how nice. enjoying this week while i still can. i wish everybody will be nice to me =( maybe if i didn't put in so much... everything wouldn't hurt as much... | |
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| tuesday is blue too | Tuesday, June 13, 2006 9:15 AM |
today is tuesday. only. but look on the bright side... boss will be on leave from tomorrow till next tuesday. i believe he's going hongkong (: how nice. sometimes... i am aware that i am already a fortunate person.. a lucky girl.. sometimes... i tell myself i can't ask for more. what i lack in one aspect.. god always gives it back to me in another way.. what i don't have here.. i can get it from there.. what more can i ask for? `3ciA... be contented with whatever you have. | |
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| monday blues | Monday, June 12, 2006 8:30 AM |
blogging again =\ it's monday. yes... damn mondays... so i missed yuki yaki on saturday. sobx... the damn shop at cineleisure closed down. what crap... what fate... i saw cheewai at lucky plaza. haha... can you believe it? and i don't wanna talk about what happened on friday. basically... the weekend breezed pass me like nobody's business. i feel like i haven't even slept enough. i feel like i'm even more afraid than i was last week. i finished the work i'm supposed to do already. so what now? wait for more work? i sure hope not. i'm damn intimidated by the work huifang is leaving me with. where is my supervisor? oh right... india. shit. this is all shit. | |
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| fuck friday | Saturday, June 10, 2006 11:35 AM |
i just didn't plan for my first weekend since IAP started to turn out like that. i just wanted to get friday over and done with... so that on saturday (today) i can have my fair share of fun in peace. i managed to do my work. i managed to get things in place. i managed to cope with that fear inside for a week's time. and it was finally friday... yet turned out it was some black friday in disguise. i damn wish all i did was to go home and sleep like how i wanted it to be. i hate this feeling of something stuck in the throat and constantly feeling like crying. i just wish all that didn't happen. i wish the wounds can stop hurting me. more scars. more fears. more pain. i wish there is a shoulder for me to lean on now. a hug.. a pat.. someone to tell me it's ok now tricia... it's ok... | |
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| finally friday | Friday, June 09, 2006 10:21 AM |
yeyness... friday is finally here. weather forecast... it's been raining the past few days. and over here i have to walk 590839835 miles to get to my office. so i'm always here drenched. how nice =( anyway i just realised yesterday that ys's office is like 2 blocks away from mine... so hurray for that! it's always heart-warming to know that someone you know is close by. like amidst the foreign surroundings... you finally found something familiar to your heart. especially comforting when that thing you found... is something that has been residing inside of you for a long long time... i wish my days will thereafter change for the better. cheers for saturday! | |
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| saturday please come soon | Thursday, June 08, 2006 12:04 PM |
heh. i'm blogging again. i hope time flies today. big boss ain't here yet and it's already lunch time. good news is... my pc has been reformatted and i can msn once again! so msn... blog... youtube... etc etc here i come! saturday i'm planning on eating back all those i've lost in my illness for the past one week. YUKI YAKI!!!! yummy i can't wait... so i'm going to the toilet now and coming back to eat my bread and watch youtube. cya guys! | |
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| it's only wednesday | Wednesday, June 07, 2006 10:15 AM |
yeah.. wednesday... only the 3rd day of IAP... i feel like it's been forever =( 3rd day and my pc is down with spyware. i can't msn and all.. i've yet to have anything to do... my supervisor is still in india... what a nice experience for me. it's hard to sleep. i wake up at 6am everyday and feeling ever so scared.. i hate this... yet there's still a long long way to go =( | |
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| i hate iap | Tuesday, June 06, 2006 8:42 AM |
to be honest. i'm at work early... so that i can leave early. to be honest. i reached at 8.00am... but the others are lazy. nobody was here to open the door for me till 8.30am. waste my fucking time. i wanna go home. i hate iap. it suck to the core. it's just $450... selling my butt earns me more. working part time earns me more. i swear i'll not end up in this kinda job in future. period. i miss fyp and everything. i feel like crying. i hope this pass quickly. i just wanna go back to where i belong. i hope today will pass quickly. i wanna meet my boy so i wouldn't be sad. i'm not some crybaby. i just hate being here. | |
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| sad | Saturday, June 03, 2006 10:24 AM |
i wish i can sneak out to attend mdm mandy's wedding =( it's just a ceremony at church. everyone's going. can't i just go even for a little while? i'm not gonna die from anything there anyway. i've been so looking forward to it. waiting and waiting for today to come. i wanna see everyone dressed up pretty at the wedding. how i wish i had a fairy godmother like cinderella =( i can't find him again. i hate being alone. | |
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| sick | Friday, June 02, 2006 1:49 PM |
i've been sick. i'm still sick. am wondering how come i can't reach my boyfriend since last night. it makes me feel like crying. | |
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