| ''' cabbagy ''' | Thursday, April 07, 2005 10:41 PM |
ok so i'm home. went out with cabbage patch asshole. freak club president couldn't make it 'cuz she had lessons till 5pm. cabbage + houhou went "awwww... so sad" hahaha ;p i spent alot alot of money today on things that i've always wanted. but i didn't manage to get what i was out to get at the end of the day -_-" watched Miss Congeniality 2 thanks to cabbage for the free tix. lol... oh yah i saw tiffny today! alright... so i got my hair cut too. it wasn't easy tellin' the hair dresser what to cut 'cuz i don't really know what i want so i pretty much just crap it all. so i got crap back lol. but it's ok... i'm ok with it still.. at least i don't have to style it all like the previous hair. it was so freaking troublesome. bumped into reagan, derren, ah dai & belle at plaza singapura. so i went home with them too. then went to meet didi at mac for a 'lil while then went home. i wanna go to athars with him tomorrow in da middle of the night. now's time for me to think of what to tell my mum. i'm gonna bump into huiling by chance on the bus tomorrow while i'm on the way home from school. she's gonna tell me that she's going to zhss to pass choohua something and ask me to accompany her. so we'll turn up at gb together at roughly 3 in the afternoon. and we'll either stay or make our leave because we both have to get back to school. feelin' wowed? i can foresee the future... what lies beyond the eyes can see. i'm witchy. lol... or issit bitchy? i'm not sure about the sushi thing tomorrow evening either. they havent confirmed it anyway... like as usual.. yeah... so i don't see why i should spare much thought to something that may not be happenin' at all... it's like past experiences told me not to behave retardly. thinkin' too much is not bringing me anywhere near good. since there are things i can't help thinking... why not quit thinking about things that i can put aside? it's not as if my presence is much hoped for or looked forward to. it's not as if my absence will matter. i took 1 year to know that they hate me. i took 2 years to learn that they're now mine. i took another 1 year to realise that seriously fate is not on our side. maybe 2 more years i'll see holding on is totally useless. stop forcing people to like you as who you are. stop forcing yourself to change to someone so that people will like who you are trying to be. because 3cia... it makes it seem as though u're such a loser. because 3cia... it makes you look pathetic like as though u're grabbing some ankle being dragged along while screaming in disdain... and 3cia you have been assured, double assured, triple assured and you believe that you do deserve better. so why is this love holding you back? why should you take such unreturned love so seriously.. so hardly? is it bcos of the time you've spent on it that's why you don't wanna give up? apparently not. is it a habit you can't seem to quit? to be pursueing and failing repeatedly? maybe. is it the familiarity of the feeling of rejection that makes you know that you're still alive? oh why am i dwelling on this tonight? i'm such a pain in the ass. | |
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