| _pa3cia_ | Saturday, April 16, 2005 5:45 AM |
Claypuppet: you've always been observing... you've always been listening... so tell me you do know how bad i am at approaching people regarding problems between myself and the other party involved. do you remember how we had to cancel that lunch silently? i never got over it. had it been someone else... i'd have kicked up a big fuss... but because it was you... i decided to shake it off thinkin' you were plain exhuasted. and the next day i asked you out again and you just coldly replied 'not free'... you've known me for 5 years or so. it's impossible that you can't anticipate my sensitivity towards that kind of situation. i'm so hurt. i don't even know what's wrong... i thought you just needed time to cool off but i didn't know how long that's gonna take. you said you don't know what's same and what's not. i'll tell you you're not the same. you're not just my aquaintance. you're my friend. you're my very good friend. you don't know anything... how about other people around me? do they even know as much as you do about me? i don't exactly love to associate my problems with people who don't have anything to do with them. i'm not out to turn people off with my rants. i don't wanna be a pain in the ass. i've just been cropped up with stuff and stuff and i just completed my last exam paper on thursday. you can ask my classmates. i didn't even hang around after the paper to wait for anyone. that was pretty much my life until like two days ago if you really wanna know. i havent been working for a month already because of exams as well as some miscommunication. my friends... yeah i'm having a major problem with a friend right now because she feels that she's not in my heart. have you been feeling like it's always about me me me and just me? is that what's makin' you so upset now? the only time i get to update myself on your life is when we meet up. but you deprived me of that opportunity a while ago. you weren't a sidekick but i don't know how to make it clear to you right now. there's only one person who shop till she drops wid me. there's only one person who knows just how to deal with me. there's only one person who helps me make my decisions. there's only one person i have to hug every single time i meet. there's only one person i know who can always tell me things i wanna hear. there may be times when our opinions differ... but it never got in the way... so i don't see what's so making us drift... if you've been listening.. if you've been observing.. you'll totally know that i'm quite drained. i'm tired just as well. will you ever hold my hand and drag me from malls to malls when i tell you i need to get this or that again? will you ever drone on about how you love your sushi tei's kajiki toro wadeva your place named it as again? will you ever forget how we get crazy from all the 'guess wads'? if now i tell you i love you, will you still believe me like you always did? i'm not as good wid words as you are. that's about all i have to say. we told ourselves we know we'll walk through till the end. i'm still thinking that way. now what about you? | |
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