| im fine. | Wednesday, April 05, 2006 9:59 AM |
nobody knows... but here i am... sitting in class... crying yet again... why? b`cuz i'm weak. b`cuz i hate the fact he cannot forget. i see him make it so clear... so clear... that he's never gonna forget her. i've seen him talk about her... saying he loves her. yet what about me? maybe i'm being childish... maybe i'm asking too much... but all these time... his blog entries were never about me... at least not in a good way. i never saw anything close to he loves me. i've never seen him say this girl is my dearest. yet even until now... it's about that girl he will never forget. about that girl who left me feeling ever so betrayed. the her i fear even in my dreams. the her i saw on his wallpaper the day he said he want me back. the her who hid from me a painful truth. the her who took away my hopes since the day i met her. i called her a friend. why......? maybe everything that happened has passed. maybe they've become history. if there's one day i wouldn't cry... it's the day i understand in his heart there's only me and me alone. it's the day i don't see him blogging about her anymore. it's the day i know i don't have to be afraid anymore. but right now... my him... can you hear my cries of fear? are you back because of your love for me? or are you back for my love for you? gotta go out and be alone for a while now i guess. my dearest>>do you know how bad it hurts me so? "especially her"... why...? | |
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