| family does NOT stand for father and mother i love you | Thursday, July 20, 2006 8:46 AM |
almost forgot to blog today... guess pretty busy playing game huh. lols... anyways just for your info... i'm not in the best of mood today. if there's anything i wanna get away from these 19 years of my life... it's that thing people call family. well they're no doubt a pain in the ass. like come on... yes i may have done wrong in the past... i may be nothing in your eyes... i may be the youngest in the family... but i sure do need that teeny weeny bit of respect. for fuck's sake think about it... i've been the one crying yet keeping mum about the authority abusing sister. i've been the one sitting by the stove waiting for the water to boil before electric kettle was in fashion. i've been the one in want and not getting what i want. it doesn't mean when you don't say you do nothing. it doesn't mean when you do something you must tell the world about it. i'm not problematic... i'm not psychotic... i'm not walking the wrong path... i'm not seeking for attention... all i want is to get what i want... do what i want to do... but i guess family just don't trust you enough to let you live your own life. that's why i change... i don't want to be that little girl weeping quietly in the corner... and if you're too thick to have realised this by now after so many times of me voicing out... the more you don't want me to do it... the more i'll do it... because since i don't get to do what i want to do... life ain't no fun any more... where's the excitement? be happy that i'm not chopping up bodies and keeping them inside luggage bags (: even though i know every family has its own woes... i'll never forget my mother telling me she'd rather have a dog than me... i'll never forget my sister telling me she hated me... and i'll never forget telling my dad he can pretend i'm not his daughter. because i meant it from the bottom of my heart... if you think i'm such a disgrace to the family just because of the people i'm with or the things i do... fine. i'm not changing that just because of you. i'm 19 and i have the right to think for myself. fussing over everything just because of a fucking broken screw beneath my bed... that is completely so not what i look for in a family. don't blame me for being a pessimistic freak. when your environment constantly reminds you that you're not as good as you think you are.. ta da~ the result you get is someone like me. sometimes i just wanna grow up... soar and fly high... | |
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