| cries | Wednesday, December 06, 2006 1:48 AM |
thanks zijing. alot. i know my mum agreed to pay for it first... but you still trusted me enough to be around. i needed that. love you sis! you don't know how much i'm hating home right now. with sister away in hongkong... things are still happening... i'm just glad that at least there's a place in the house that i can lock myself in and have some peace for now. the tears just keep coming... and i can't help but wonder why... what makes him think she'll always be better than me? they don't remember the little girl who sat at the stove waiting for the water to boil. they don't remember the little girl who closed the windows everytime the rain comes. they don't remember the little girl who swept the floor and folded the blankets. they only remember the girl who cries too much. they only remember the girl who didn't score 260 for PSLE. they only remember the girl who isn't home all the time. i was the one crying when both of them were fighting. i was the one helping him when they were repremanding him. i was the one chatting with her when she couldn't sleep at night. i was the one giving her spares whenever i could afford. all i ever wanted... was for them to understand what i really want. but i realised after all these years... perhaps telling them right in the face isn't gonna work either. family... something i don't hate... unfortunately i don't love either. it's hard being alone... because i need a shoulder to cry on. | |
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