| so sorry | Sunday, May 20, 2007 9:19 PM |
i wish i wouldn't make mistakes... hate is a big word; i hate making mistakes. i'm so afraid. i'm so afraid i feel like leaving. i feel like letting go and just drop whatever i've managed to grasp in these 4 months. i'm so afraid i feel like running away. i'm so afraid... but i can't tell anyone what i'm afraid of. only God knows. like the future is near. and everything i've hoped for and asked for in the Lord are mere dreams that can never be granted unto me. what happened to that faith? the never crumbling faith i thought was ever so strong. it's scary isn't it? how fragile the wall is that when i cry the tears wash away it's stability. i'm so tired. maybe there really is a time to start saying no. maybe they're right. thanks jonathan for being there. thanks xinying for listening. thanks... i really needed somebody. | |
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