with all that's happening around, i kinda lost track of time.
it's monday again, i realized.
my sister is back and again pushing me into making decisions for my future.
i'm freaking out, no joke.

if only, i just click on the send button on outlook...
maybe then i wouldn't have to think so much for a long long time.
maybe i'll even be happier.
looking at the date on my resume...
it's been 2 months already.
2 months of my resistance of a calling i felt.
why exactly am i holding back? i don't even know.

of late, i heard a friend say...
you can't face a person every week if you're trying to forget him.
i think i know.
and it all confused me all over again.
why have i come?